Uncle has had a fall in the care home. I am bewildered as uncle much prefers to call people to do stuff for him so what he was doing falling instead of sitting and shouting is a mystery. He got checked out at A&E and is okay.
I worry that, unconsciously, staff at homes don't check on people so much if they don't have many visitors. My health is now in a state where I can finally visit him. I am going to find it incredibly tough. Just the phone calls I used to take before he went into care could wreck me for a day.
I have to visit. He was a real rock when I was little and things were complicated. I'm going to find it hard. It will only take about an hour out of my day, but I am so disorganised that I will miss that hour. I will also find it mentally incredibly tough, though that is no reason to avoid visits either.
I feel incredibly guilty that I wish I didn't have to do it. Deep down I am glad that I still have the chance to visit my uncle. I just know it's going to be another long slog. I need to remember what the alternative is.