Thursday, 25 February 2021
Nothing Much Here
Wednesday, 24 February 2021
Laptop!
Tuesday, 23 February 2021
Gentle Improvement
Wherethejourneytakesme - I put garlic in everything. We are definitely vampire resistant in this household. I feel for your daughter so much! I have to check labels and Sodium Metabisulphate seems to be in everything! It must be hard to be so vigilant.
So far today I've done a few loads of laundry, made dinner (mushy peas, potato products, fish fingers for bear and I and the other half of the pasta bake for DH), taken the recycling out, contacted one of DH's elderly aunties for a chat, kept up with bear and took out the recycling bin. I've done a small amount of sorting stuff, a certain amount of writing, and I've generally been positive.
Bear got a good report. I feel for the teachers trying to keep going in this mess. Bear's school has kept up to live lessons so bear has been logging in and having teaching time, but it must be so hard for the teachers. As it is, bear has got some great 'attitude to learning' scores. Some of the attainment scores aren't brilliant, but that's okay. We can work with that when things get a little more stable.
It's going to be a shock to the system when bear gets back to school. I think bear would quite like to not go back to school, thank you so much, but at least he will have some separation between home and classroom. I must remember to take bear's blazer in to be cleaned.
Soon I am going to head out and pick up bear's prescription. Hopefully I'll hit the sweet spot between the end of rush hour traffic and the store closing.
Hugs and good health to all.
Monday, 22 February 2021
Slightly Better
Wherethejourneytakesme - avoiding garlic must be tricky. It sneaks into so many places.
Fifitr - thank you for the support. I feel hugged.
I am gluten free, and I have issues around dairy. Bear isn't brilliant about dairy either.
Around six or seven years ago, bear started with an upset stomach that went seriously wrong. For several months he couldn't eat, had weird reactions to food, had violent stomach pains and was often sick. He couldn't even manage chocolate and this stretched over Christmas - the poor kid missed out on most of the treats. I had him back to the doctor plenty of times, but without any luck. We were just told to give bear milk of magnesia. We went through bottles of the stuff. It left a real mark. I don't want to go into too much detail, because it's bear's business and not mine, but there were times when I was desperate for him to get any food in him at all. Things have settled down somewhat now, but it can still make catering a challenge.
I did some driving today. I called in at Boots, near IKEA, to try and get bear's prescription. Apparently there are manufacturing issues with one of the tablets so they had to ring my GP to sort out whether the thingy could be varied. I showed complete lack of discipline and walked out with a load of stuff, though, to be fair, a lot of it was half price. It was wonderful to browse new things, and the only thing I regret buying was the fancy handcream for £1.75 instead of £3.50. My hands did not react well and now I'm trying not to scratch my skin off.
I also cleared out half a kitchen cupboard. I used my judgement. I didn't get rid of the unopened dried onions that were a month passed their 'best before' date, but I ditched the unopened dried carrots that had about a year left because they were definitely past their prime.
Then I got the text to say that Boots now had the prescription ready, but I got there just as they were switching off the lights. I called in at Aldi for a few bits, so I stretched the wheels, and I'll go out again late tomorrow as it seems lovely and quiet. I'll try and just do a straight dash to the counter and out again, though, with no shopping detours!
Writing stuff - I try to have something on my writing blog every Monday. Today's piece is a little dark, so I'm not linking it, but it's what I 'heard' and so it's what I wrote.
Hugs and good health to all.
Sunday, 21 February 2021
Feeling the Fail
DH and bear both were in transports over the chicken tikka masala they had for dinner tonight. I found it somewhat depressing. The sauce was Tesco Tikka Masala Cooking Sauce and cost 75p. I might have a chance of making something similar, or something equally tasty, but not at that price. Tomorrow DH is having a pasta bake out of a jar. He really loves that pasta bake, and it's incredibly inexpensive from Aldi. I can't match it. Bear and I will be having baked potatoes with baked beans, and enjoying them a great deal.
I'm definitely feeling underwhelmed by my cooking skills. I can cook, but I don't have the patience to be a good cook. I still fail at frying eggs, though I can usually make a roux without much problem. It's not so much the skills, though. It's the will to work out something that will taste okay, not be too expensive, will work with bear's food issues and also the family's various dietary requirements. Tonight's meal cost around £1.20 per head, including the frozen potato product and peas, and the men almost licked the plates.
I know what we'll be eating for the next two days, but after that I may try a few experiments. I think I'll have a look on the Jack Monroe site and see what comes up. If anything exciting happens, I'll share.
Hugs and good health to all.
Thursday, 18 February 2021
Uneventful Drive
Wednesday, 17 February 2021
That Was Scary
Fifitr - the park is one that is usually reasonably well used, and it's near the Tesco/Aldi/Asda/Iceland group of shops so on the way for lots of people, but there were definitely more than usual. I feel for you - it's so irresponsible. I'm going to have to have a go at the zip. It's a great onesie, and bear has had a lot of wear out of it over the last few months. I shall have to go carefully. Bear was very sweet and said that I was an awesome mum and the ability to replace a zip was unimportant. He is a hero!
I got a delivery today, and of course I forgot the sandwich meat. I had been nervous driving yesterday and considering going back to P plates to warn other drivers that I wasn't confident. Bear was telling me that I had lots of room, but it didn't feel like it when I was trying to squeeze past all sorts of gaps. I felt very uncertain, so I thought I would nip out and pick up the sandwich meat and come home. It was more of a drive to stretch the wheels and build confidence.
I was driving along Bradford Road in Batley. In the middle of the road are lots of bollards. I suppose they are trying to keep cars on the correct side of the road as there are usually lots of vans, cars and lorries parked along as there are lots of small industrial and commercial units. It was dark, but I'm not worried about driving in the dark, and it was raining, which doesn't bother me unless it's really bad, and I was ticking along at just under the speed limit. Coming the other way, swerving through traffic, was a large transit van type thing which swerved into my lane to overtake by a bollard and I managed to stop just in time to avoid getting hit. The thing didn't have any lights on. It was completely dark. Fortunately the car behind me was keeping a sensible distance.
I did everything right. I was driving sensibly, with appropriate lights, on the correct side of the road. I nearly got walloped by a van with no lights on the wrong side of the road and driving erratically. I feel a little stressed.
I'm now seriously considering going back to P plates to warn other drivers that I'm nervous, and I'll be going out in the car a lot more, to get my confidence back. I'm not planning on doing more shopping.
Christian stuff - I know some friends here aren't Christian so I thought I'd put a warning. I'm not a Catholic, but found myself watching this video, from a Franciscan Friar (I think) about not giving anything up for Lent. When my mother was going through chemo, there wasn't much that she could give up, so she deliberately did something extra for Lent to help others. In the past I've done that as well, knitting blankets or sweaters for the homeless. My life is so chaotic and rudderless at the moment, that I'm almost paralysed. I think I will use Lent to try and focus and sort things out. Perhaps then I will have more room to be a Christian.
Hugs and good health to all.
Tuesday, 16 February 2021
Another Quiet Day
Wherethejourneytakesme - I still have a weakness for a good documentary.
Bear's physio was cancelled. I took bear to the park in the afternoon - and it was packed! It was absolutely heaving with people! Many of them were not distancing at all. There was an ice cream van! Then I got back to the car first to wait for bear and realised that I had forgotten my knitting. This was a shame as there was quite a wait as bear got lost and came out of the park in a completely unexpected direction. Also, the snack place that was open was closed by the time bear got back so I ended up nipping to Tesco and picking up a wrap for bear. As bear almost inhaled in on the ride back, I think it was a good call.
It's much warmer here now, but there is still ice in the pond
As usual, the photo isn't brilliant. There are gulls standing on the ice but behind them are ducks and geese swimming. There are a few bits of snow in Tesco car park as well, despite it being sometime since the last flake fell.
It's looking a little second hand, and I don't suppose it will last much longer.
Now I have to try and work out how to mend a zip in bear's onesie. He really likes it. It's huge, warm and printed with skulls - what more can a fourteen year old lad want? Unfortunately the zip has gone and I think I'm out of my depth. I've been looking at YouTube videos, but it looks like the zip itself has broken, and I'm not skilled enough to replace a zip. I may see if I can pick up some velcro and use that to replace the zip.
Hugs and good health to all.
Monday, 15 February 2021
No Casualties
Wherethejourneytakesme - I may have a look at that, as I like following the weather. But I don't even speak Dutch! DH has friends over there, so I don't know if the algorithms have got confused. To be honest, I enjoy a random selection. Thank you for saying it's good for bear. It's so important.
Fifitr - I am a fail with scary movies. I used to watch football or documentaries with father. I think the original Nosferatu was utterly terrifying! Have you seen the version with Eddie Izzard? That is worth watching, just for the creeping inevitability. btw BritBox has a whole section of Hammer Horror movies and we plan to work our way through them.
Warning - wittering about writing.
I write sort of horror. It's not very horror horror. I am too much of a scaredy pants to do that. But I agree, the best horror isn't about buckets of blood or gruesome effects. I think the best horror (at least, that I've had the nerve to watch) is about making the viewer's imagination do the work.
I always feel that horror is about a lack of knowledge, and a lack of choices. I know that there are a gazillion books on it, but sometimes I think it's about not knowing what you are fighting (like most of the characters in The Devil Rides Out) and not being able to escape whatever the menace is. I think of Alien, and being trapped with something unknown and frightening, as a great horror movie (which I don't have the nerve to watch again. I feel that there has to be something claustrophobic about it, or undefined. To be honest, I think that buckets of blood and gore can take away from the horror. The scariest monster is the one that you can't see, and can't understand or predict, and can't escape.
For the last few years I've taken part in the October Frights Blog Hop, and always felt a little inadequate. I have stories about vampires and werewolves, but I don't really think of them as horror. I think that they are nearer an adventure story. My novella Dinner at Dark is sort of horror as the characters are trapped by floods with something awful, but it's short on deaths. For those interested, this flash fiction, Walk in the Park, talks about monsters, but I think of it more as action. However I think that Wanderer in the Mist has much scarier implications and would consider it nearer horror, even though no monsters are mentioned. For me, the older stories were much better at the subtle chills, and it made for a much better story to my mind.
I should be clear - I'm not saying that I'm a good horror writer. I'm just a writer that attempts horror, or, at least, mildly chilling.
As for the heading of this post, I drove to the tip, then out to the park where I went once around the duck pond (which still has some frozen water even though it is much warmer now) and then home. The drive was awful. I didn't feel confident at all, and I seemed to be scraping through gaps and slowing just in time for the cars pulling out in front of me and then pulling right in so that the car coming the other way wide around a blind corner didn't clip me. There were also lots and lots of horses out and about - some on very main roads, and a couple of tractors. I was a bag of nerves by the time I got home. I didn't come near to causing any accidents, but by the time I staggered in to the house, I was impressed that I had avoided them.
Writing stuff - as for today's flash fiction, I'm still knee deep in other writing, so I thought I would re-post a previous post, a poem that's here.
Hugs and good vibes to all.
Sunday, 14 February 2021
Cold!
The window in my room, next to my desk, is very draughty, especially when it's windy and I'm getting draughts across my writing. The weather is definitely unimpressive.
I sometimes think that I should choose a box and get in it. I don't ever seem to fit into a category. I usually don't worry about that too much, but I just realised that I may not be a consistent example for bear. The first few suggested videos for me on the YouTube home page are 10 hours of ambience music (writing music), a video about the SAS kit (research), a weather forecast in Dutch (no idea whatsoever), a video giving the difference between monks, friars and jedi made by a genuine monk (research into monks probably generated this), a video about growing sweet peppers and a video with tiny, handsewn patchwork. I think that I may lack focus. On the other hand, I have plenty of things to dip into if I'm bored.
I have just spent a lovely, lazy early evening watching a film with DH. We saw The Devil Rides Out. It terrifies me. I know it's pretty low key compared to more modern films, but I'm not very good with scary. I write scarier than I can read. I may have nightmares.
Hugs and good health to all.
Saturday, 13 February 2021
I Took Pic!
Thank you for the good wishes, Fifitr. My leg is less painful and more numb now, but girly bits are playing up. I am taking a duvet day.
I have no idea what I'll end up doing, as whenever I decide to do one thing I seem to do another, but today is definitely a duvet day. I also had some deliveries. I got the yarn from Marriners which is three hat and scarf kits, a pom pom maker and 1000g of black 4ply.
I also received the new wrist rest and mouse mat I ordered a while ago as the current ones were disintegrating. A few weeks earlier I had ordered a case for the new phone (that I got to take pics of the old phone, it's a work in progress) and I didn't realise that they had very similar designs.
The reason I got a phone case was because I am used to a case on my old phone. The case on my old phone looks like this.
The case is battle scarred and thin at the edges. The phone has survived belonging to me for a few years and is relatively undamaged under the case. I believe in phone cases.
I'm quite impressed by the design of the new wrist rest and mouse mat. The predecessors started as plain black but saw a lot of service, so now are a sort of dim, dark grey with bits. I was worried that the pattern would distract me, but it doesn't, and it's nice to have something pretty.
I'm a little worried about how the winds forecast are likely to affect the trees across the way. However I think I'll just settle down under a blanket and ignore the weather outside. The men are elsewhere, so I can leave them to it.
Hugs and good health to all.
Friday, 12 February 2021
More Ouch
Thursday, 11 February 2021
A Little Better
Thank you for the kind words. They are sincerely appreciated. Still tired, still itchy, but not as bad. When it is at it's worse, it's very bad. Just now, it's just not good.
I went to the shops today, after something of a gap. I just picked up one or two bits. I will probably have to go out again next week.
It was nice to get out and stretch my wheels, even if it was frosty. I'll probably save any more driving until next week, now, when the weather improves. There's not that much driving to do. I'm still trying to be responsible. The shops are tricky. Sometimes it feels like people aren't taking the risks seriously. It's relatively busy. There were a few big gaps in the freezer section. I picked up everything I wanted.
Writing stuff - Check out the sneak peak for 'Under the Bright Saharan Sky' here.
Hugs and good health to all.
Wednesday, 10 February 2021
Not Much Better
Tuesday, 9 February 2021
Fail Day
Monday, 8 February 2021
Sort of Snow
Sunday, 7 February 2021
All Dry Here
Pam - thank you! It is unsettling.
The flood has gone, but here is a pic from yesterday.
Saturday, 6 February 2021
Soggy Saturday
Friday, 5 February 2021
Slightly Busier
Thursday, 4 February 2021
Another Very Quiet Day
Wednesday, 3 February 2021
Second Phone
I bought a second phone for £35 (refurbished from Tesco) to be able to take pics of first phone (which was a lot more expensive) and hopefully be able to get the hang of instagram. I did look at cameras, but they are relatively expensive and I can't work out how to get pics onto the laptop or onto instagram. It has been explained to me several times, but the explanation slides off me like a duck trying to land on a frozen pond. I took a pic of my real phone in its case.
I may need some practice.
The case is pretty battered, but the phone inside is fine. I have dropped my phone, bunged it in bags, shoved it in pockets and it has rattled around the inside of my poor car in all sorts of places. The case has taken the beating, but not the phone. This is a miracle. I've tried to encourage bear to use a case but apparently it isn't the done thing at school. My real phone is a little worn, as I've had it two or three years, but it's not in bad shape - as shown below.
I still need more practice. But that is a pic of my phone, with the kindle app on it, showing my latest.
Actually, today has been a bear day. I've had phone consultations with two health care professionals about his ongoing joint problem and he did something interesting to his back this morning which left him barely able to move, poor kid. As far as I can tell (I have the medical knowledge of the average banana) it was a muscle spasm, but with everything else, it gave him a really hard time. It's easing off now, so I'm hoping for an easy night for all of us and I will keep a close eye on him.
Hugs and good health to all.
Tuesday, 2 February 2021
Writing Continues
There's not much else to say. I've not been out apart from last night when I went late to the shops for some bits to keep us going until the next delivery.
We had snow overnight. The laurels opposite are once again pushed down. I'm going to have to go out there with a step ladder and a saw!
School have been pretty good. I have had a few calls from teachers just checking that all is good, and they are keeping the kids pretty much on the timetable. It helps keep bear on a rhythm. Mind you, his next lesson is 'games' which will almost certainly involve the Xbox. I've been taking him out for a few walks over the last week or so, which is something.
Today is Candlemas, or Imbolc. I had a quick scan of the various Wikipedia entries and it's a pagan festival taken over by Christians and is a festival of lights and perhaps the first stirrings of spring. And the days are getting longer, by over three minutes every day where I live - I looked it up here. And there has to be a little hope on the horizon, if only for a little more sunlight.
Writing stuff - I squeezed in a little flash fiction here, about Candlemas, and now I am back to writing.
Hugs and good health to all.