Thursday, 7 January 2016

Feeling Low

The GP was almost certain that the cellulitis had gone, but was concerned about swelling in the leg.  She sent me into the hospital as she thought it may need a scan.  I got there @ 12.30, left at @ 6.30.  No scan.  There was one doctor working and a lot of people waiting.

It probably isn't a clot.  There is something wrong, and I am in pain, but I have no idea.  I don't have the emotional resources to go back to the GP.  The doctor at the hospital rattled through at such speed.  It isn't urgent, but I don't know what to think.

DH missed out on going out to see his friend.  He also had to leave work, collect bear and take bear back to work with him.  Bear had an awesome time and did some filing, but even so.  I can't believe the trouble I've caused.

I still need to move the tumble dryer.  I am on the floor as it is.  I will just have to manage somehow.

I feel like I am at the bottom of a deep pit.  So I am going to go away, sort the tumble dryer and go to bed.  Things will look better tomorrow.


  1. So sorry to hear you are in pain. Could the people who are delivering your new dryer move the old dryer for you? Or could your husband move it? You really should be resting, you know.

  2. Take care of yourself. Nothing lasts for ever - even feeling as bad as you do- it will get better. Christine x

  3. Please if you are no better tomorrow, go back to either your G.P or to your local hospital. Love and hugs,

    Alex xx

  4. Sorry to hear you are feeling so low, Syb :-( If a friend were describing this to you, what would you encourage her to do? I suspect you'd be telling her (or marching her) back to the GP.

    It's really hard when you are on your own and feeling so unwell. It's difficult to summon the energy to do the day to day stuff, never mind the extra needed to help yourself. You really need to do it though... Of course you might well get better on your own, but you also might get worse. Or you might have got better, faster with the GPs help.

    Better to go back now and maybe get to the bottom of the problem, than to carry on like this.

    I've found it helpful to write down beforehand what I want to ask/say, what questions I have. I refer to the notes when I am in with the GP, it gives me time to think when I am feeling a bit woolly headed. When I'm well, I don't need notes to help me, but when I am not well, it's a bit od psychological support.

    I also find it helpful to say to the Dr/consultant "OK, let me check my understanding, what I think you are telling me is...."

    These two strategies (the notes and the playing back) might not work for you, but might be worth a try?

    Take things easy, be kind to yourself

    HUgs to you xxx

  5. Please be kind to yourself - sometimes we just have to admit that we are not superwomen and we do need help. I've had four days in bed with this flu this week already and I don't see myself being terribly energetic when I wake up in the morning [or later on in the morning as it is past midnight now - but I have a hot flush on at the moment and can't sleep - temperature is up and down like a yoyo...] And people appreciate us a wee bit more when they understand a bit more about what exactly we do for them, I have found, some of the time. Take care - will check back for an update soon. Hugs x